I miss u man. As of late you haven’t been the happiest w/ the assortment of things life has been dishing out… And trust me, I know how u feel. Contrary to popular belief shit hasn’t been all that grand on my end either. But we won’t get into all that…. I’m trying to see things on the bright side. Trying to keep the small, positive things in sight. Which in turn is kind of helping me figure out a way to sort the things/feelings I’m not so jazzed about. It’s a lesson I learned from you. For whatever reason you’re really good at that. In the few years we’ve known one another I’ve witnessed how great you are at encouraging others in a way that helps them forget, even if only temporarily, the things that get them down. It seems you’ve always got the right words to say. You look outside the situation, apply your logic, all while empathizing with them at the same time… You’re a fucking amazing friend. But as amazing as you are, still, I fear you’re allowing “life” to do exactly to you what you refuse to watch the people you care about go through.
Maybe you’re in a rut. Maybe life right now isn’t how you’d dreamed it be a year or so ago. Make a new dream. Focus on the small things that are good right now to make you happy, an eventually(hopefully) all the other crappy aspects of your life right now will have no choice but to fall in line. Yes, it’s easier said than done… But stop saying things and DO them. If you don’t like it, change it!!! Not because I’m trying to boss you around, but because I know it’s what you’re capable of! As cheesy as this may come across you have to start “being the change you want to see”…and it’s not as if you haven’t done it before.
I worry for & about you(a lot) just as you do others. And one of my prayers daily is that God does something to turn things around for what you’d view as in “your favor”. Honestly, I’d be happier knowing you were happier than if my particular circumstances changed right now. If I could I’d fix everything for you right this moment I would without even blinking. But all I have is these words….
You should know who you are… And I fear this may not mean much, but for what it’s worth I hope you know it’s coming from the middle of my heart(cuz nothing good ever comes from the bottom of anything in my opinion, lol). I just hope that soon you’ll start to feel a bit better.